a choice must be made,

a choice must be made, when I'm alone but I say why I'm like that, I do not want anyone I just want to know why I can not keep it simple, taking advantage of time passing and swinging between wanting to do something and the desire to do nothing, but now I must think and it annoys me as to where I came there not long ago but with everything I do I stand ready to intervene whatever happens, because essentially it can go but as soon as I dive into the passion for the flesh, I no longer recognize myself, it has to go fast, I do not have time to lose and when it's over I become again normal, it's crazy not to stay on the same league, slightly indifferent to it normally starts a bit for it to be normal and a bit for it to be done the same meeting as above, but this is a mistake of slipping into my program and only if I see a woman with breasts that I become weird, it triggers in me a crazy pressure without limit except that of not telling anyone because for this thing I do not want to face I just want to live, is it so difficult, everything else seems so simple, time, money, power, alcohol, all I can easily control it but sex remains a poison that will kill me one day that I could do more to live with this burden, because to live well one must live without fear, and as this is something that is needed there is not to do anything, everything is said even before we dream of saying, and as it is a mission without end, we must take it into his head that all that matters is having a well-educated thing and as is the use of public show nothing that would otherwise decay, much like what is shown on the box because for me the important thing is to do that we love, for example if you want to have the chance to thank a little much to the madness that is not difficult, you just pay attention to the lack that could one day become more important and then go monster I fear of the future, I do not know what it holds for me I have the ability to continue to live easily, or should I do something regrettable, but I wonder how do you guarantee me a good life, I wait a sign, maybe one day I would get a message showing me the way forward and giving me all the equipment to resist the temptation of the flesh, one can always dream, but I do not see anything else, that can tell me a doctor, an architect, actor, juggler because yes I know what my power, and that is precisely what I miss that gives me the strength to fight one day I'll say I love, that's all my life summed up in this sentence then I can go further in the relationship and have another child, but it is only for this lamentable irritation that I'm sorry to see that everything can be lost one day , thank you my God to give me strength to take my share and no more than that because I can not have to bear the misfortunes of others, mine is enough for me and I am not strong enough to laugh at what happens to me This is the wisdom and old age that can bring me the rest but this perspective is still far away and I still face difficult times like training never stopped, we learn every day, right also makes me optimistic because at the moment I master the beast, then surely I can do ah yes then