if I could do whatever I want, I will not do anything for fear of making a mistake, because when you have no money nothing is done, when it has to lose, there is a risk to any what drags me in torments I do not know today, today I do not have money, that's why I write, I hope to have enough readers for me provide income, now I do not have enough players to win anything other than the desire to continue, it is at that moment that I think about what to say to make money, and there I see a big problem, I do not know what to say to someone interested myself because I do not care what I write, I feel compelled to do so, it is a mission that was given to me by someone I've never seen, I found it myself, one day I told myself I need to write to be good, so for years I write things that I like not because I believe in evolution, what I am now, I will not be over in a year, in ten years, so I told myself that in ten years, I've found something I do not know today 'today, how to have fun, I do not have that temptation today, I am often asked the question, why not have fun, what makes me happy is to sit down and write, but after the first pleasure, then it is a disaster, there is more fun, there is a pain that happens in my brain and then in my hands, life is sad, do not laugh, others are indiférents it nothing happens, everyone stays at home