know what is happening

know what is happening, how ironic , how stupid it nothing happens , it sucks , it's all that remains , a choice that does not pass, a slow decomposition, shoestring , a desire to live happy then why do all that, it's stronger than me, I sink into the mud for fun, all in a complex situation , I do not know how to be in the right box , something m ' escape , I will never do anything good, it's like this , we must know what we can do , I do it, something that is worth nothing , but when I understand what happens , I know why I like that, it comes from my happy childhood , I can not help today , all the happiness I received prevents me from going beyond, I'm stuck I do not know yet how time is the magic of life , one day it is released without knowing the reason you need in life is to hope that it comes , it's easier just to say that everything I do is a preparation for later when I have figured out what to do, but now it's tiring because everything is slow, it does not work, I have to cling to that I continue to dream , too bad, that's how I say well not hope , but we can not decide that's part of my genes , it is the deepest part of my being, I do not see it , I know it exists, then I still have no taste in the mouth, nothing in the mind is the great void that I filled with words that mean nothing , but now the time approach to jump , ah good, and how does it , I do not know, I guess that's all I have left an impression that is not based on anything, but I know that sometimes it can still open then I cross my fingers