in as safe a short time

in as safe a short time that I spend all day without being able to do something that allows me to get out of the hole where I started , I did not find a solution that makes me jump , I 'm turning the problem in every sense , I see no end is stuck somewhere , I do not know why , I do not have the means to effectively search , I see my mistake , that's all that I can do without feeling sorry for myself mn out , I did what I deserve all these years that I left without doing anything cast and recently I decided to take the bull by the horns , but it is only a few months when I crossed the 45 spring all that is due and I am the first to understand, so here I am somewhere where I do not know so I make noise to ward off animals who would eat me , but how do I jump , I prances , but it does not change , I can not find the way to make me out every time I start , I fall , it's almost funny, if I was not over my head like a sword of Damocles , the time left to live , maybe a few months , who knows , the short time, and it goes is fast , I am thrown against walls, everything collapses , it will remain nothing of this world, and yet I pay attention , but then I do not know because what I'm doing now is containing the essentials for that it is not destroyed, but when I found the way is that I can still live in the intimacy of family life , humanity is it not as a family to know, but then c ' is fiction , yet all goes well, I do what I want and it does not work then I see that it is pure happiness, this is not exactly what I 'd like to do but I think it's fun and it does not exceed the boredom of life, so it is well balanced and it can go in a hallway or in a tent because there are different ways to make happiness one can for example start by getting married