what I want I can not find it

what I want I can not find it because what I lack is to be present, which is the most difficult because as soon as I approach it away and I have to do without him what drives me in the past, even if it's close it's over, there is a second file it in the hole in the space I have, it is a way to be faithful to an idea when I was that I was is what I am what I am , or should I wait a bit before having the chance to tell me that I am already at the point expected by my biggest shareholder , as here is lost, then I look around in another tree that I can transfer to the middle of my living room, but for that I need to clear the room of all that has dragged on for years because I keep everything I think I accumulates in places it reaches the ceiling, so I will be forced to act , I see now that it makes me feel good sort, it was just recently arrived , I did something when a suddenly I thought that life passed quickly and I lost too much time do not store anything , since I had to take rest until my courage and start from the beginning , a corner of the room filled with business and I was amazed by arranging to discover things that I had put there years ago, after one week the room was empty and too it is as if I was born again years before when I I settled in the apartment at the time I was happy, everything seemed easy, I have since learned that the world is unkind to the Gentiles, to protect ourselves and despite this wall we built there always rats that pass and come and tell me that what I do is stupid and it is not worth continuing it serves no we do not need this, but a shovel I kill the rat , it is a pile bleeding , I throw it in the street so that everyone knows well that you can not make me anything you want I can also defend myself , then life is more complicated , before I had no enemy, I went quietly without fear , life is good until the day it emerges and becomes visible to the people then the game becomes jealous bleeding