I wonder if I am still far

I wonder if I am still far or if I am in the state to do that without knowing why I wonder if this is what to do because at the same time to keep everything from what to do with it trembles when I touch but for it to continue as it was before you have to make some preparations that will fill the void because by this time it has to do something for later, and whatever people say above all is despicable but if it changes is that everything I say and however well then set aside with the field that gives satisfaction I believe my duty is caught in time, what is happening is a struggle to get in where I am told that this is where I will die but before finding what I want I have to do other things that will prepare me for the last day, and as always I am alerted to it but when I see it is deeper I wonder if I'll find every time a parade or so will I have all my life let me push from prison and never be able to laugh, because in any case it is necessary to set mind that life is very strong, and that the human is like a walnut shell in the ocean so furious to be true it really doubting themselves and how we can start something that will put the time to produce because of the effects before starting the beginning we have to go deep into this that does not have to be equipped with a wand that will give us the ability to pull the son and as it takes time I spend my time out to understand that the wind blows, the earth rotates and the sun will burn to be in a bubble of fun I seek a new how come to be taken of passing time trap, like I think it's funny it's already past when just now I thought it was time but is it necessary to face the boredom of living when doubt is stronger when I'm in charge of my life listening to my heart beating quietly advising me to do things well in an environment able to take the time to see to understand and work towards a goal of respect for others in the same time