how am I going to have the chance

how am I going to have the chance to win expectation, it's been years since I expect it to be done in full, ie everything that can go elsewhere and is what remains it in space that serves as my life there has a way to keep everything here, so I could ask me a minute to point, how I'm trapped, I have not decided anything and here it falls on me, ah what life is twisted, must pay attention to everything, if we guard down it falls over, as if it was waiting for the moment to act, but I'm not doing anything wrong, I 'm just clumsy, I do everything wrong, instead of going straight I left and vice versa, it is similar, it does not change, I felt like becoming an adult, but I realize that I 'm still many times helpless as a child, so how can I get rid of this remnant of childhood, there is surely a way, drinking beer or wine in large quantities does not tempt me, I would prefer a more neutral way that makes me live fast the years that I am now fully me, because if I count backwards I get a result upside that does not serve me as I understand it is difficult to jump when you are not near where it should be done, yet I am accused, but it never happens, it would be too easy, we must anticipate the moves but what is the technique, how to anticipate a day or two to prepare the best response but I dream that does not exist, we must deal with it and be wrong all the time, what I choose is not usually a good choice, fortunately it did not result large consequences, but in the long run it is tiring, so I began to wonder if I'm not in the evil eye is an old belief that applied in the Middle Ages to those that plague continued, but nowadays everything goes well then the old recipes that no longer works, so this is something else, a tendency to chance going too far suddenly time to get there is nothing, when to others go at the right time, but as in all cases there is a risk that grows with time and those who have too many chances to start end badly, so I prefer to be in the clan of the unlucky ones who may one day see tip the balance, it is a promise that I do, it keeps me up when I lose hope, but I am optimistic that passes easily, but should not it too long because I will keep it more I'll crack one day, what awaits me this may be madness, but hey, I reassure myself, all that is present is not so bad, there is just a small gap that leads me to be more urgent, but not enough to go further so I spend my time humming the same tune