to nine hours, I continued along the same lines last night, I saw the pace of the descent of land to the winter, I breathe continually without thinking evil is a vegetative state unproductive at first sight, but studying more closely you can smell the bad breath after the sausage and red wine, I can not live properly, I must always eat and drink what not if you want to live to a hundred years as a vegetable, it quickly takes me wine, I do not want to live long, what for, to wait until night falls or neighbor who does more on his legs, for me life is a succession passages active and inactive, it takes a little while and a lot of concentration, that little slip very quickly, each day is a challenge, there's departure, action, that is, what to do, attention, temptation unhealthy option 1 , I go, option 2, I'm not going, joker possible recognizing the supremacy of God on earth, joker refused, not enough faith, I plunge in doubt, am I able to succeed I managed to walk to two years, I managed to make a child, I managed to get my license, but I failed to be as I want, I want to be free as the 'bird, dumb as a fish, fast as the tortoise, as beautiful as a spendthrift, I'll make one day or night, it's my ambition