I will never go there because I am no longer able to make it energy required to accept what happens , in fact, in the uncertainty of life there is something that does not pass, c is hope to get there , well, it happens that renounces because time is short, the lack desire , I lack time to say, to be sure about one time or another device because it what counts is the choice to leave or stay, so why I stay because I am not able to go, I'm still missing something, this sudden impulse, this excess, this lack of awareness , this empty I place the head so to speak nothingness side of life , but to know it needs to be done and undo what is going to understand what I want , it takes time because everything is connected , it should not be surprise , everything is there in inside for the to it is still like the last but I hear that does not want to make because everything is in but it is not seen in lost me , one day I know what it is because in life there before and after, for the beginning of the year I know what I did not see last year, it appeared to me in January, 2014 starts , I finally see all the work that remains to do is monstrous, it will take me years , but what counts is that I see, I see where it starts , then before I saw nothing , it takes time and when I see it I say , yes , it starts