in a sense I am going ahead but the other way I make on-site, how many hours I spend doing nothing, and once I decide to take action, I leads quickly what I consider important, and then once that is done, I go back to square one, ready to go, but I am, there was not that much things to do is a habit to get into, not much is expected, we do not know what, that can happen, I do not know, I do not care, useless, vain, dark, fast, time unknown anxiety,he moves without looking back to see if someone is missing is a story that knows no jump, a slow journey with a cold light in the distance, it is not reassuring, it's like elsewhere so that we are here, that's a shock, but this is not the first and surely not the last, so do not worry, everything happens, the best and worst, envy and self-loathing, how to avoid the worst I do not seek the best, we say that it comes after life, as we are living it wades into the mud of uncertainty, where to go, what to do, what to think, going, back, bad choice , know, you try if that happens, we can think of anything else, for years, summer, winter, evening, night, stars, the warm wind, before starting I take time to fully place myself