a blinding flash , deep night 's sleep waiting, what else to do , I am aware of what is going on for some time but I wonder why it is like that , no other way, because tomorrow , yesterday it really happens, it is inevitable , because the truth is to find, since now I sense a certainty , uncork a bottle of champagne I 'm , waiting for the right moment , and then the other thing to notice it does not matter, it is also , yes, death awaits me since I was born , but under different conditions can I expect always go to the same place because the reality is in a box, that is where it ranks happens outside is outside , the air circulates freely, I am a prisoner of my body, but the attempt does not respond, I try to understand , why the silence, why the sidewalk, why chance cross to immediately go to the other side , the other way , in a certain irony , I agree , but how to spend it is heavy to carry , an experience that has been growing for years, it will touch the ceiling , how to avoid to remove the key , I ask myself the question, I think , it can , it can not try , we'll see if it works, I walk, I found the necessary strength , I can make one more effort , I seek positive energy, what's the point , it is a tension that is repeated thousands of times , when you are tired , when you get close, one suddenly everything stops , what to do to get into an empty passage, but when I see it , I say , it's still something we could not walk gently , life requires a choice , it hurts this is not good, it should not be a problem , because I 'm ready for anything if possible , otherwise you have to put in provision , it continues to make waves , we could say that c ' is what I want , yes I know now , I want it, it's very clear in my head