a single day, sometimes multiple opportunities, lack of certainty and all for nothing, it is useless, I searched for a long time what it could be used, but I must say now that it does not work not, I am sad and at the same time I do not care, because I am a responsible, what I do I do believe in certainty in what I do, I fully invested at the moment when I know I'm sure to get there, like that from the start I am ready to understand what I do is 100% sure about, I do not count pickles, or stories that sleep standing, I'm sitting when I write is to stabilize me, otherwise it would go too fast, I do not maîtriserais anxiety does not exist for the moment it goes, it does not bother me, but I I feel this terrible lack of not being able to go where I can go long to realize that the time is right to the extent that I am able to believe in myself a little more than usual because I have a habit not to do what it takes to position myself in the right direction, it is a choice, it is also a need, it is essential for me to continue something that keeps me heart, he pack over 45 years and I feel the pressure rising, I find balance by pressing Conversely, it is releasing one can pass up opportunities affectionate, pleasurable sensations, an urge to décharcher cargo, it does fidgety, he must constantly repeat to make ends meet, but I know we can not do otherwise, this is our life, we are not able to go elsewhere, we must is here, now,