I used to make decisions, it is easy to take what is there, but when I think of my childhood I staggered, I spend another step, I get older, I lose my innocence, I get stories crazy, yet it was expected that I continue to live quietly so far, but how it is, am I arrived there, it is not obvious, how could I be sure who to ask that I do not even know what to ask, so I continued alone in believing that this is what I've got better things to do, this is my project, continue until I can no longer do so, be that I am dead, 80% have a disability, for the moment I am handicapped heart, I find it hard to love, I see the other as strangers I can not win, it was time that I did, but I'm really realized some time ago, it was in January, I had planned to do a big party with friends, and then something happened, it was by far a force terrible shakes beings, all of a sudden, it was the only one, is it the last, I do not know, that shot went in for, we can do nothing, it falls when it wants is completely autonomous, I can rennoncer my project, there was no question of partying, hope Moreover, it must wait for better times, for the moment it is happening in the head that there are unanswered questions here, now, please consider how, where, being, doing, giving, left, remain, understand, set the table, choose the plates, counting the knives and forks, the youth center that goes out, there is more project of a sudden, everything goes, everything remains forever in the head