I need more patience but I am shaken by uncontrolled emotions, it goes in all directions, will I die, I am now on the verge of falling into dementia, it starts, it stops, it comes, it goes, it is a dance, not in the dark, desire to finish, the joy of life, another day, another hour, that Mary pray for me as I pray for her, it does not matter, it's wonderful, I feel better, that's how I live, ups and downs, suddenly I'm in the middle, it's okay, nothing worrying, I am, I finally found the necessary breath, I take a deep breath this time of freedom, and in one hour the pizza is eaten, there will be nothing this morning